How to Pick a Milestone

How does one pick a Milestone? I have a couple to chose from...I'm not sure what to chose as THE milestone right now, so I'm going to celebrate them both! The first big milestone was getting the insurance company to approve my surgery, then getting the surgery done. Now that I'm on my way, I'm ticking pounds off a couple here, a couple there. It's nice to be able to add them up...forty at last count. I finally made a keychain that I'm trying to keep updated after each weigh-in (please forgive me if I get behind, Jasmin) because I needed a tangible reminder of how far I've come because I just couldn't see it in the mirror or in the clothes yet. It's getting a little easier to see the changes now. Anyway, back to milestones. The first big one is a nice round number of 50, in between hundreds - not the total I've lost but the actual weight - a weight I wasn't sure I'd ever see again dieting. This milestone is only 5 pounds away. The second one is 50 pounds lost (I don't want to find them again) and this one is only 10 pounds away. I think there's some serious celebrating that will have to happen here in the very near future as both of these were places I really didn't ever think I'd see again. Big dreams starting to come true leading to even bigger dreams taking root. Thank you to all who have been supporting me through all of this. I couldn't have done it as easily without you!

Chartreuse: the new Blue

I'm tired of blue this week and I'd like to make an argument that the new blue should be chartreuse, aka BRIGHT LIME GREEN (substitute favorite color as necessary). How in the world can anyone be blue when you have that color staring you in the face? During weeks like this, I'd surround myself with this color (wacky mental picture of stapling chartreuse roving to the walls of wherever I happen to be) so I couldn't be anything but happy. Such a cheerful color wouldn't allow for tears, sad thoughts or frustration with your boss's "don't do as I do, do as I command you" attitude. It would make everything okay. Yeah, so I don't live in that color-perfect world. But, isn't it a lovely thought? Maybe I'll paint the walls in the spare room this color (toned down just a bit, or not) so when I walk in to get yarn from stash or whatever reason calls me into that room, I'd have that mini-refresher. I hate times like this when tears are on call at a moment's notice for no reason I can find or understand and everything just feels wrong. I keep hoping that I can go to sleep at night and the next morning whatever this is will be gone. So far it doesn't seem to be working and just existing is getting rather annoying. None of the normal rituals that have worked in the past seem to be cutting it...maybe there really is something to this whole green thing. ;)

What can I say?

So, what do you say when you have nothing to say? I guess "nothing" is the answer. So, it's nothing you got. It's not that I haven't been busy, sort of. There was lots of work - up until April 14th. Then there was lots of sleeping and healing, oh and fighting with the insurance company (still going on) for paid time off. State Disibility was great. Checks came every week or so...couldn't seem to quite figure out their timing and neither could they. There was quite a bit of knitting, some crochet, a little visiting, major resting and healing from the surgery. There's also been some weight loss: hopefully the tip of the iceberg. So, now I'm back at work as order seems to be restoring itself to my small universe and things seem to be calming down and evening out. Wrongs aren't necessarily righting themselves, but the wrinkles are being worked out and if not, they're being run over and left behind along with the frustration of the things I can't fix. So, all in all, it's a pretty decent view from the window. ;)