November 28, 2010

Thankfulness

As many of you know, I never seem to do anything in the straight-forward, normal, true-to-fashion manner. I seem to be off marching to my own drummer, making my own pattern, writing my own story. So I guess this should apply to my thankfulness this Thanksgiving as well. As I sit here at the end of this long holiday weekend reviewing the state of my life, I'm saddened, scared, frustrated, and confused as to how I got to where I am. Saddened that I've lost my family to the tides of time. Scared that I am alone in the vast world with no family left to fall back on. Frustrated because it feels like I've made such a mess of my life. And confused because I really can't tell you where everything that happened started. Sometimes it's difficult to remember that it will get better and that I have to have patience. And there will be a lot of changes in the meantime. And there have been a lot of changes already. I have a place to live, yes, but I've lost my house and I'm unemployed. But in the midst of my life feeling like it's falling apart, it feels so hard to find something to be thankful for. I could use lines like, "I have my health." Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful for my health. But through it all there have been friends who have reached out a hand, sent a text, an email, an instant message, or phoned me to see how I am and keep in touch. To let me know I'm not alone, that they're there for me, that they care. To all of you (you know who you are), I'm thankful for you!

September 13, 2010

Changes

It's been far too long since I've visited you. Please forgive me my neglect. All I can say in my defense is that life has gotten in the way...again. As I sit here trying to figure out what to say and how to say it, I realize that one of the most important things in my life just came and curled up on my arm as I'm sitting here typing, putting his head on my shoulder and looking up at me with his beautiful blue eyes as if to say, "Don't worry, Mom. Everything will be just fine." Oh, that life were just that simple and easy. I wish. After a series of events over the last year or so that included a massive reduction in pay and another RIF at HP (this one I got caught in), I find myself going down a slightly different path than the one I originally charted. Such are the plans of mere mortals. But, plans are made to be changed and when the ones I made started crumbling in front of me I realized that it wasn't necessarily bad, just different than what I had chosen and could still lead to where I wanted to go. So, it's not with a heavy heart but with a heavy moving truck that I'll be moving out of my house into an townhouse for awhile to regroup. The bank and I are negotiating settlement (with an attorney, of course) and I'm leaving behind some bad memories and some other things that are just best left behind. The biggest challenge at this point is what to do with all the yarn and fiber! hahahaha Anyway, for those who would like it, please feel free to contact me and I'll be happy to give you the new address and phone number. The cell phone won't change. Email addresses will, but I sent an email out...let me know if you didn't get it.

June 23, 2010

Yes, It's Been Forever

Yes, it's been forever. I haven't forgotten you, I've just been busy doing other things. Namely work...and work....and more work. There's been some spinning and some knitting, but there's been a lot of work. And in the very near future there will be tales of the Great Pacific NorthWest Adventure 2010 that Denise and I took a week or two ago to go and see my god-daughter's graduation and celebrate my birthday. There will be pictures and tales forthcoming (as soon as I can catch up with myself and get things sorted out and uploaded). All in all we had a wonderful time! :)